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04:12 pm
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My boat and I
My new favorite thing
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03:18 pm
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As good as it gets
My bad ass alter-ego is powered by crystal-meth[amphetamine] and bigotry
Suck on this: liberals!
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03:12 pm
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Chaos in Christmas Town
Since the battle is still raging in my living room it is now Chaos in the Easter Village
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08:15 pm
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I'm going to do this
http://www.wikihow.com/Make-Pumpkin-Pie-Straight-from-the-Pumpkin
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03:29 am
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I don't know
I only feel compelled to make an entry whenever I hit different low points, which I'm sure isn't nearly as interesting to anyone as it is to me.
I've just really needed someone lately and have been met with the astrigent realization that I have no one in State College. Furthermore I haven't really had anyone at all lately in my life that I can talk to recently.
I really enjoy going to school in State College but on the weekends I just want to be with Shannon, wherever that might be.
I don't know. Maybe I'll expand on this.
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02:52 am
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4th
Streets paved with people surge with a familiar pulse
Skies erupting with fire
Waves audibly striking the beach and crawling up the sand
People sprawling out of the streets onto the sidewalks and lawns
Light from fire erupting in the west sends our shadows scrambling to the east
A billion eyes all concentrated directly behind us
And we walk against the wind
Letting the fragments of sand swirl acrossed our faces
Like a shitty light setup at a Kmart Photography booth
The eruptions to our back continue to outline our shadows in different hues
Screams from the blaze mute our senses to all but what we refuse to face
We walk slow and deliberately towards the end
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11:11 am
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Here Come 1800 Nickels
Hobo: You man, got a dollar?
Suit: Yeah, got change for a hundred?
--Water & Wall
http://www.overheardinnewyork.com/archives/002934.html
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09:47 pm
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Living in State COLLEGE
I really like it here a lot.
I love my apartment, and I love the "community" it's in, I love having my own room, and I love the campus.
I don't really like down town -- it's far too gimmicky. 4 dollar frozen latte's and such.
All in all I really like this college experience or so to speak, I haven't even done any "crazy" partying but I think I prefer it that way. For me slightly after the buzz and the following morning and several days make it not nearly worth it for me. Plus now that I'm going to be going on medication for my blood pressure and such I feel that drinking is not condusive to me getting over that at all.
God, now that I started this I'm just realizing how not into writing I am right now, maybe I'll give a better description of my life right now at a different time.
Current Music: Bright Eyes - Nothing Gets Crossed Out
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03:16 pm
[Link] | wish came true.
Current Music: The Strokes - What Ever Happened?
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03:12 pm
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A little bit of summers past
hope he takes his time and
i hope he keeps your eyes closed tight and
i hope that when he leaves you still
you smell him on your sheets cuz i can, i can
if i could get to sleep then
i guess you could stop pretending
cause if i didn't think you loved it
well then i wouldn't play along
you're down for selling me out
while i, play dumb
it's cool cause i let you
...thought i'd never catch you
you say, "we're only friends"
yeah, real good friends, i bet, i bet
forget your legs around my hips
forget your hands pressed on my back
forget the letters that i kept
this is another i won't send
forget your lips, your eyes, your thighs
forget our one last kiss goodbye
forget me stakin' out your house
forget i've got you figured out
Current Music: Taking Back Sunday - The Ballad Of Sal Villanueva
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03:04 pm
[Link] | Please tell me you're just feeling tired
because if it's more than that I feel that I might break
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12:27 pm
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It's about time
We've had this other turtle for a long time but I've never posted a picture of him so I figured I should probably do that. With the onset of two turtles the "aquarium" is now legally, a town. It's name is Turtle Town.
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12:25 pm
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First and last (for now)
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07:53 pm
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Let's burn some more bridges before we leave this town
Bury me in memory
Current Music: fall out boy - sugar we're going down
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11:37 pm
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Monk
"Oh happy birthday. Did you get the card I sent you?
Did you look on the inside....
because the punch line was on the inside.
It was a pun."
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11:16 pm
[Link] | God, I had something really good I wanted to put in here, but I can't remember what.
Here's the low down, I've been too busy to eat the last couple days, I hurt my back today, I have to go on prilosec and high blood pressure medication and I'm beginning to get "the fear."
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02:51 am
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Life can be funny sometimes
I know my mind has screamed this, but it never makes it out my mouth.
I get it, you're a poet, I don't want to read what you have. Leave me the fuck alone.
Conversation I had with a carny at the Clearfield county fair.
"Winner everytime."
"We're having a conversation about whether or not we want to go talk to this person right now."
"Winner everytime."
"I don't care, we're in the middle of a discussion, don't worry about it... go away."
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11:12 am
[Link] | So when I'm lost in a crowd I hope that
You'll pick me out
How I long to be found
The grass grew high I layed down
Now I
Wait for a hand
To lift me up, help me stand
I've been laying so low
Don't want to lay here no more.
Don't want to lay here no more.
Current Music: Bright Eyes - Nothing Gets Crossed Out
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03:05 am
[Link] | Wow I feel a lot better
If anyone has a problem with my grammar or spelling, fuck you.
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02:14 am
[Link] | I feel so fucking tired, and beaten, and dead right now. I don't want to sleep, I don't want to be awake, I don't want to die, butI dont want to be here. I don't want to be alone, but I don't want anyone to fucking bother me, I don't want anyone to hug me, I don't want anyone to touch me, but I want someone to be here with me. I want to be happy, but I can't be right now, I just can't.
I need to think about a lot of things, I need to remember these things before I can think about them, and I need to change what I know, what I knew then. I need to change how I am, but I've tried to be the best I can, but I just can't.
I just want this collossal weight over me to fall and crush me. I want to know what it feels like for the bone in my skull to turn to splinters as they cut through my brain.
I am trapped in this fucking room, but it's the only place I feel comfortable. I have no way of feeling comfortable right now. I need fresh air. I want it to cool my face while I drive my car and while I'm driving I want every song I want to hear come on the cd player and I don't want to stop until I see something magnificent.
I want to do something that no one else can, I want to take a picture of it and I want to love that picture and I want to change that picture to be something completely different but have it's beauty still trapped itside itself.
I need to change, I need to improve, I need to learn how to fucking deal with all of this before all of this consumes me and there isn't anything left. I have all this shit that I don't need and I keep buying more and more because I can and I think it'll make things better, and I tell myself that but it wont. I don't need anything new but after I'm done with typing this going to check to see if my package has been shipped because I fucking need a KVM switch, and I fucking need a new keyboard even though the one I'm using is working fine.
What I need is one easy night, that's fun, with fresh air, with my friends, and Shannon, and I want everyone to fucking laugh. I want another night like that so I can stay fucking sane, I don't know.
I say I don't know in these fucking things and to myself because I don't ever want anything I say to ever be perminant or serious. I don't want someone to read this and judge me without having that little bit to fall back on so I can say that [whatever] isn't what I meant.
It fucking is.
I need something simple, I need to stop wasting my time and money, and I need to have fun without worrying about every little fucking detail and how it could go wrong. I need to feel better. I've been sick for months and I don't know why.
I have a stomach ache right now, it hasn't went away litterally for months, I can't stand too long without my insides feeling like they are going to fall out.
I need to fucking write again, I haven't had anything to write about and what I have has been so pretensious or forced that I refuse to revise it. I have needed to write what I want without feeling bad about it or feeling bad about how I feel.
That's it for now. bye.
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08:20 pm
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Astrigent realizations of being home and being as far as ever away from where I want it to be.
Where we go?
What will we do?
So said I, we'll know.
and are you just like me?
Dead eyes,
Dead eyes are you just like me?
Her eyes,
her eyes were vacant as the seas.
Dead eyes, dead eyes are you just like me?
Current Music: The Smashing Pumpkins - By Starlight
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07:36 pm
[Link] | So I haven't posted in a coon's age, here's a stupid test thing I took. Also I have edited a bunch of new photos which can be found at www.theradioactive.com/gallery/
Here's a stupid test thing I decided to take:
(x) smoked a cigarette
(x) smoked a cigar
(x) smoked anything else
( ) made out with a member of the same sex
( ) crashed a friend's car
( Read more... )
Current Music: Weezer - Freak Me Out
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12:18 pm
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A king is born
Long live Mercutio,
may your guns blaze hot
and your enemies die slow.
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04:24 am
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Go here or be forever dissapointed
http://www.planters.com/dancing/
I bought two knives today. I'll put pictures of me stabbing people's faces off as they become available.
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12:55 am
[Link] | Unabashed dependency
Seranaded to everyone (honestly)
for you, about you, pertaining to you, whatever
I wait here in this place for your voice (to know you're safe)
But I know everything is alright
because it has to be
I'm still worried though
Current Music: Bright Eyes - Poison Oak
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